In the early 70's when I was twenty-something, I wrote a passage in the back of Thomas Merton's book, New Seeds of Contemplation, that reflects an important decision I made. It may sound a bit strange, but I love it in its original form and here's what it said:
- "The problem, if any, seems to have been one of faith, or no faith--either as taught when young--the Christian way of life. Now I truly believe that is the way for me...; the other--faith in man's own creativity and man's own doing, man's own rationale--ability to handle everything--humanism. I've gone back and forth many times and maybe many more times, but this time I truly understand which one is the "real" me..."
Certainly reflective of the interior struggle to find myself as a young adult, forty years later, I remain, with the help of God, on the spiritual journey of obeying His will and following the inspirations of the Holy Spirit. My primary vocation is wife and mother and I've been married to my wonderful spirit-filled husband, Charles, for 37+ years. We celebrate the life of our children, Jacqueline, Joseph and his wife, Stacey and grandson, Benjamin, who currently reside in California and Tulsa, respectively.
Although we had "empty nest" for over thirteen years now, it has never seemed empty; spiritual parenting, youth ministry, school teacher--these roles have connected my husband and I to hundreds more youth and young adults--and our cup runneth over with the goodness of God's mercy and love.